He never takes the easy way out. At the cinema, where we will see her pacifist sister of a war hero. And in life where she only follows what her heart and belly tell her. This is also why the actress Kristen Stewart talked with Grazia about her body and how her decisions are born in the mirror. she needs the right dress to face the world
"I like the very Italian idea of Sunday lunch, and I'm good at making spaghetti. But I stopped eating meat, now I'm vegan. And I love centrifuged. For example, I use apples, celery and carrots and add peanut oil and coconut. He doesn't know how wonderful. ' As I listen to Kristen Stewart, and I wonder why after only a minute of saying goodbye we are talking about this, I realize that she is the only actress who can really blow me away. I am reminded of the photos of her with her new flame, the model Stella Maxwell, angel of the lingerie brand Victoria's Secret. The two walk around holding organic beverages and extracts, proof that the healthy change is real. But most of all I think Kristen has been one surprise after another lately. Especially from a sentimental point of view. In May of last year, for example, he declared his love for the special effects producer Alicia Cargile, after a year and a half of back and forth (interspersed with various flirts, never accompanied by confirmation or denial). “I am in love with my fiancée, from whom I have separated a couple of times. For her I have finally returned to feel authentic and profound feelings », he declared coming out of the closet and making us finally breathe a sigh of relief. But here, a few months after those words, Kristen joins Stella, with whom she was seen kissing during the Milan fashion shows. And she confirms herself as the true Hollywood rebel. Raised in Los Angeles with an Australian mother writer and father assistant director, and overwhelmed by a success, the Twilight saga, which would have struck most of us, at just 26 years old Stewart loves to experiment and does it with a ray of light. very broad action: ranging from feelings to hair color, passing through her choices as an actress. In fact, turn your back on dizzying and easier takings, prefer independent cinema. In her next two upcoming films she will embody two very different types of sisters. In Billy Lynn - A Hero's Day, by Oscar-winning director Ang Lee, in cinemas from February 2, he will try to convince his brother, a tormented hero of the war in Iraq, not to return to fight. While in Personal Shopper, by Olivier Assayas, in theaters in April, he will try to make contact in the afterlife with his twin brother, who died of a heart attack. At our meeting Kristen, who is also the face of the Chanel maison of which she wears a trouser suit, shakes her hands nervously, while telling me how through the roles she chooses she wishes to face every possible angle of herself. “I feel at my best, as an actress, when I show things that the public doesn't normally see, and that I wasn't aware of,” she explains.In Billy Lynn - A Hero Day, she is the pacifist sister of one of 100,000 soldiers who were in Iraq in 2004, played by rookie Joe Alwyn. The scenes between you, when he comes home to receive an award, are of great impact. “I think Ang Lee selected the best of the dialogue featured in Ben Fountain's bestseller (published by minimum fax) from which the film is based. The director's intent is to show a truth about war that is light years away from what public opinion believes. In the story I represent an alternative and uncomfortable voice. I want my brother to know himself: if this happens, would he still be proud to go fight? I've never been a judge, even in real life, but I've always believed that, before you stand up for something, you have to understand it, not just be consumed by it. " The issue is more relevant than ever, there are many boys and girls who, in order to escape the limits of their daily lives, are thinking of enlisting in the army. Is Billy's choice that of many young Americans? “I think it is more than ever a shared story. The army has given direction to so many lives off course, it has also provided a purpose in a positive sense. But not everyone is prepared to be involved in something much greater than themselves, to accept terrible actions and consequences. And this was even more true 13 years ago, when the film was set, when there was also a lot of propaganda. The hardest thing to ask is why people kill, shoot and fight. These are all questions that give a lot of humanity to the figure of a soldier ». In the film he deals with a living brother, while in Personal Shopper he struggles to recover from the death of his twin. “Strange things happen to my character. In an attempt to fill the void of loss, he cultivates his more masculine qualities, trying to emulate his brother. The downside is that her femininity is in crisis. The story is complex, it tells of a metamorphosis that mixes paranormal influences and the sudden desire to put on someone else's shoes, to come back to life ». Do you think painful experiences are necessary to make us open our eyes? “They allow us to understand what really matters in life. Loss confirms to you that you will never have answers on the quintessential unknown, death. We don't know what will happen in that moment, we don't know if we will be alone or feel connected to something bigger. And all this is very scary ». What relationship does it have with the world of the supernatural? "As a child, ghosts frightened me, and I don't like the idea that there is something invisible. Today I don't believe in these presences, but in the impulses and instincts that start from the "belly" and which it is better to trust. They are the reason we feel attracted to someone and rejected by someone else. And they have nothing to do with logic ». The personal shopper she plays in the film is a weird girl."She is a woman who is very attracted to beauty and aesthetics, but she is so self-punishing that she feels guilty about it. You feel a sense of shame in wanting to be attractive and wanting to surround yourself with beautiful things, because you don't like yourself. 'Did your stylist give you any useful advice for this role?«He knows me very well, after so many years of working together, and he doesn't just think about the clothes to wear. There are many people distracted by fashions who just want to give you the right image, but are unable to emphasize who you are. My collaborator knows which is, from time to time, the perfect garment to make me face the world ». Three years ago she gave her hair a drastic cut and, in hindsight, her choice doesn't seem random at all. “I decided to do it as soon as I turned 23. The hair allowed me to hide behind a sexy aura. As soon as I found myself exposed, without this shield, I had to show my real face and the strange thing is that I brought out a self-confidence that I didn't know I had. The hair made me feel like a real girl, it sent messages like: “I'm beautiful, I'm feminine”. I don't know why I gave them so much importance, perhaps because everyone associates long hair with sensuality. But I asked myself, “Is my first goal in life really to be wanted? All this is deadly boring”». Didn't you fear the change of image?“I lost two kilos before I met the hairdresser. I couldn't swallow anything, and the day I sat in that chair my hands were sweating. ' But she has never lacked strong character and courage. Do you think it has something to do with the fact that you grew up with three male brothers?“If I look at my photos up to the age of 15, in which I used to wear my brothers' clothes, I was the tomboy. I liked tractors, basketball, football. And I've always been a child who wanted to be with adults. "I can't believe it. “I wanted to be seen as great, but then things changed. Between the ages of 15 and 20 I was always anxious, if I couldn't control things, I felt lost ». Have you learned to put a barrier between yourself and the world? «After 16 years of work I can handle negative thoughts. Today I no longer get overwhelmed and, if it happens to me, I know it's temporary. Then it passes ». More than having made peace with her public image, she seems to have made peace with herself. “I'm smarter and calmer than I used to be. I am not afraid of my dark sides because when you are true to yourself there is no longer a dark side. And there is no longer any question that will bother you, if it comes honestly. " As I say goodbye, a phrase that Kristen told me recently comes to mind. “If I had to choose to be an animal, I'd choose a cat. Because when everyone wants him close, he stays at a distance watching you. " This is enough for me to take away the illusion of having finally met her. Kristen Stewart will amaze us again, I'm sure.